Matt Strebel's Journal

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Dear LiveJournal,
Well, today has been an interesting day. It is the first day back and I am happy that I can finally see half of my friends that I haven’t seen in since before break. I took my normal ride in my neighbor’s truck to school and then I went up to my normal spot up in the commons. I waited for my friends to arrive…only because I have nothing better to do in the morning. They finally came, I said ‘hi’ to all the ones I haven’t seen in a while, and it was a good ‘reunion’. Class of course sucked, but that’s Chemistry for you. Then I saw probably on for the stupidest assemblies the school has put together. I mean seriously, the school wonders why we need another budget cut…cause they spend money on assemblies that us students don’t really want to go to. If the school proposes another idea of an assembly, I’d say to them… “Listen, you wonder why we have so little money in our school budget and why certain programs aren’t going to happen next year because of it. Well I say, take the money on assemblies that even though you my see fit for us students, are really just a waste of money to you and a bore to us, and put it toward programs which need it.” But no the school is too stubborn to do so.
Then the rest of the day was…eh…all right I guess. I couldn’t wait to go to 5th period. Why? Because that’s the period I get to hang out with my girlfriend, in ASL class. But I forgot that that was the period that she was going to the assembly. So I haven’t now seen her in about a week and it really sucks. I wish I could see her more often. But there’s nothing I can do about it until I can drive. Yay for driving!
So yeah, now I’m here in class, talking about my day and resulting to thoughts of…oi. I’m just so tired I want to go home. But nooooo, the bell doesn’t ring for…6 more minutes. But that’s ok, I’ll just sit here and babble on about nothing so I can pass the time. Well I’m going to print this and hand it in…I’ll enter again soon. Bye bye.

-Matt

wow its been a while lol....i jsut got bored so i think ill wirte. im not gonna recpa the past months or whatever bc i dunno when i last update adn im too lazy to do it lol.

so yeah this week has been great for me, 2 days till spring break...and im like yay because i asked my friend katie out. i met her first at my neighbors black party and we were lucky enough to be in the same ASL class coicidently a few days later. so this whole year weve gotten to know one another, and i finally asked her out on a date. she sed yes thankfully, and ill say the date was amazing. i wont go into specifics, but it was heavenly in my mind, it was fun, sweet, funny, just overall an amazing date. and in the end when we were at my house, before i got out of her car me and her kissed and i will say it was one of the best kisses ive ever had, it was short but sweet, so i was all like yay! and according to me and her friend Michelle, she was all like 'i reely like him' so the date was the clincher for me to ask her out and she sed yes! so ive been like floating again and i lvoe that feeling lol, o yeah thats been my main weekly highlight lol.

so now uve got the mainhighlight, read someone elses lj, im not too important anyway lol jp peace

katie 3-29

well its been a while since ive updated adn i only got abut 15 to sum it up on why so ill give you the best idea of it all that i can...

for the second quarter i got a 2.75. for me thats the lowest ever. my parents got extremely pissed and grounded me for three weeks. no comp no nothing. well, those times went by ok but hell, ti was te ahrsest three weeks of my life...

ive never had to go withou the comp for the long so it was really hard. lol. well my 3 weeks were up BUT i had a really stupid episode....

I was working....nvm that heres the sum up.
-i got the stupid idea to steal 2 video games out of toysrus where i was working at the time.
-i got caught
-i got fired
-my parents fflipped a shit.

my parents now have tkaen EVERYTHING away from me so the only way im udating my Lj is in school. well i went to see mr. greco today and ive officially decided i want to go to family cunselling because we came top the decision that it isnt entirely all my fault. that i have my own goals, which may not meet theirs. i want them to realize that I am the person that i wanna be, not the person that they want to be....they say they love me for who i am and no matter what i do...but as soon as i make my own choices on what i wanna do, i get punished. THATS the reaosn why i want them to go to counselling with me, cause i know, mentally, they are as fucked up as i make myself out to be. I mena im only fcked up because i think that its my fault. but im learning it isnt entirely mine. it is partially theirs too. well i am going to go now cause i gotta get ready for math extra help. I'll hopefully update later in the week, maybe mondayish. peace out yall.

o btw me adn mari broke up because she wants to get to now me better before we get farther in the realtioship. well, that aint working real well lol. so basically im gonna talk to her more about it adn hopefully me and her get abck together soon becuase if she hasnt figured it out yet....i care about her more than anything else in this world. i dont want to lose her because i cant talk to her enugh (because of my punishment for the stealing thing). mari, if your reading this, i really want to get back together with you, as if u havent heard it from nina enugh lol. but please talk to me later. im out y'all...peace

i <3 Mari (no matter how we are)

wow i didnt think that id lose all feelin in my fingers about abour 5minutes but damn it happened lol. i was wakin mari out to the buses adn i had my arm around her for about 15 minutes, well if u dont know yet, ITS RAINING FREEZING COLD RAIN, well my lil insecure miniscule mind didnt figure that out till i couldnt feel them lol. but it was worth it...kinda....::grabds recorder:: not to self, wear gloves.

today since i last updated was a pretty good day, i talked to mari about that note, and i explained it a little better than what i emant and me adn her are amazingly kool about it, im good that way lol. then the rest of the day went on and well it was kidna dull, nina was out...big bummer...feel better babe...and then i just tried to stay awake through periods 4-9. well it was a success and i dont think im that tirzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz::wakes up:: sorry...where was i? ::looks up:: ok

then i went to my geeky magic/yugioh club and did pretty good on my games. then i FINALLY found mari after the hunt for about 15 minutes, (only then do u think the schoolis really that big). afterwards i walked mari to her bus, waited outside in the freezing rain for about 15 minutes, gave her a kiss goodbye, and thn came in to type about it all lol.

i know that most of you have only begun to realize that within the past week ive had more than one long entry per day. thats because only now am i willing to share this much of my life with you all. i used to be very secretive about it all, but recently its been pretty damn good lol. so might as welllet u in on it lol.

well i gotta go, gotta do some shit ill ttyl byebye.
<3 mari 1-29-04

as the title reads,. im waitning....ya see, i was so proud myself, cocky as it sounds, about the 'breakthrough' that i printed it out, and wanted mari to read it....this morning. so i highlighted the good parts and gave it to her. so now i get to sit here and wait to see what she think about it. the min thing that owrries me is the 'i love you' part. because last night me and her were talkin about how we use thw words 'i love you' and i think shes gonna take it as if i am rushin things, m,eanswhile i dont want it to seem like that, all i want is for her to know that i am an amazing guy who gives more about her right now than i do my own family. she menas so much to me and i dont wanna lose what i already have. if i stayed in the place i am right now fopr the rest of my life, id die a happy man, and i wanna be happy, i wanna make mari happy, and making mari happy makes me happy, and i love this circle that ive gotten myself into.

ts jsut that at this point i cant stand being away from her because the feelin fo when im with her is so great. and i know to alot of people i sound like im overly obsessed with this girl, but im not, im really into her, and i say i love her because not only for 'that' kind of attraction, but for why its there. if i hadnt decided to try to change myelf a little bit for her, i wouldnt realize what a much better person i am today than i was a few weeks ago. and this little breakthrugh is what eally impresses me. THATS the reason i love mari, for showing that difference in me, even thugh she didnt do a damn thing, but because she was there and gave me purpose to do so, thats all she needed to do.

so yeah the onbly reason im updating now is because i got out early from ym damn chem midterm, which was a bitch. i think i got like a C on it or something. i didnt do great, yet i know i didnt do poorly either. lol. and well since last night, nothing new has happened, i know urlookin for more, but remember, tis only been about 9 horus since my last post and 6 of them i was asleep. im out to look for online games....peace

<3 Mari 1-29-04

god i need a cigarette lol. jp. just kidna stressed. long nite, long talk, long face. im like so tired it aint even funny, i really just wanna run away to maris right now from this place and not return for a few days, i need some time where i can collect my thoughts and think to myself what my destiny is, its kidna hard to think about though. i mean, im sure at least once in ur life ur parents have sed no, and uve been pissed, but i mean, my parents are so straddled by the subject of em adn colette's lil adventure about 3 months ago that they till cant rust me, adn that hurts me more than it hurts them, i never thought it would take this long to heal a wound. all my life my life has been great, all my friends have been kool, ive had alot of laughs, theres nothing i really regret, and the only 2 things i ever regret were having sex with colete, adn telling my parents about it. if it werent for those events, id be the original guy i used to be in 9th grade, happy, perky, normal, etc. but all the while i look back at when i did tell my parents about it adn i laugh, and i say, wtf was wrong with me. yet i look at it adn say, they know who i reely am, then i cross out adn change am with was. if anybody has seen me recently, ive completely changed, form the way i act,. to the people i hang out with, to the way i dress, to everything. and its all because of one thing. solely based on the group of friends concentrated upon nina, alan, mari, kaitlyn adn jeff. these fab 5 have changed my life in a way that i never couldave done on my own, they change the way i look at things entirely, and all these things couldnt be done alone. if it wasnt for these guys i dont think id be me, id probably be the dark mysterious sean that weve all grown to know. no one wants to see me like that, especailly me. hence the part of the entywhere i talk about the main bullseye in the dartboard of why ive changed...mari. yes i know me adn mari have only been going out 5 days, but theres alot more to it thatn that. shes given me the look on life that wasnt there before. i see that school is very important to what i need ot be successful, i see that all people are different, adn nont blended from one circle of freidns to another by one person. i see that everyone is unique, and that nothing cna cahnge that. but what i see most is that i am all of the above, i am unique, i belong to many different circles of friends, and i different. and i think finally i can say that the balanca of who i am if finally here adn i know who i want to be. i dont wanna be the me that i was a few weeks ago, where my friends based around colette, j, sean, and the smokers. i wanna be the kinda kid i used to be, hanging out with people like mari, nina, jeff, kaityln, etc. i see myself in those people more than i see ymself in anyone else in this world. not even my family. its only been 2 weeks that i can come to see this, and its been a lifetime cvhange, i guarentee it. god only could look at me in one way, and that was to look into my eyes, filter through all the dust adn dirt, adn see that there is a good guy inside me, but beofre i could find it, he had to first, adn he finally found that eprson, adn showed it to me...and i like that guy, i hope is the kidna guy that i wanna be when i grow up.

but the overall point is, its been 2 weeks, and i can seea different me already, its an amazing feeling, and i thank 5 people for it...Mari, Nina, Alan, Jeff, Kaitlyn. If it werent for you guys, id still be bragging about soem girl i prob woulda just met then screwed. but i dont like that old me anymore, i see that that was a rough phase in my life that i needed to go through, and i got through it pretty well. but now that im here, standing, taking baout certian people who i know i will remembre forever, those people are the reason that i can be the true me, and live my life to its true potential. each of them deserve personal shoutouts...

Jeff- weve gone through alot fo shit together, even though at times we werent that close, but due to ur connections with certain people. i see alot fo me in you that i never knew there was, and im glad its in you, adn not anyone else, thanks alot man

Kaitlyn- wow, a few rough times but actually weve both changed on how we look on things, certain things i couldnt look at alone, adn thanks to u i saw them. thanks.

Alan- ive only known u for a few months, but i feel like ive known u forever, without u i dont think i could relate all sides of me, but thats to u...i finally can. i owe u big for the few things uve done for me, but those few things were crucial. wihtout u being with neen, i dunno what me AND her would both do in our lives. thanks

Nina- wow, without you, id be left in the back of hist class with no one to talk to about anythign, id bottle up all my emotiotns and let them out wrong, but because of u i can dispense them in many forms. without u in my life, i wouldnt have a therapist lol. but damn gurl i really couldnt live without you cause u brought me to something that ive never had before...

Mari- this is gonna sound like im saying it to you like ive been dating you forever but ill make it sound real adn true. mari, you are the primary reason that ive totally changed, ive looked at things alot differently ever since i started liking you...ill sum it up this way......... when i first started to like you, i wanted to mold myself into what u would like as a bf, i was looking at the poeple u hagn out with and i sed, i can be that person, its basically my old me. well i changed the way i dressed, thought about myself, adn the way i look at alot of thigns, all for you, within a week. and during this last week that weve been going out, i see that....i like this me....this is a me that ive never had before...theres nthing going wrong in my life....theres nothing that can really bother my life so much that it turns it all the way around. its so amazing what one person can do do another in such a short period of time. ill say it out loud and i will say it proudly for the first time ever to you. mari, becuase of the way u mkae me feel when ur with me, the way that u look at mewhen u say hello, the way uve made me feel on the inside adn the way i present myself to this very day, it is primarily because of you. and because of that, not just for the purpose of being my gf, but for the purpose of being a spark into my old self, i can breath again the happiness of life and look at it positively. without you, adn these two weeks of time, i wouldntve been able to be this happy...and because of that....mari...i love you.

well, according to the time i am in Forensics class...which is true but i finished what i could early :-D lol. so imstead of dong nothing for the next ::looks at watch:: 15 minutes, im gonna update my journal with such mindless babble that i looks like im reely typing up WORK! lol. its pretty kool, shes right over my shoulder but im gonna keep on typing till she notices lol. and she walked away adn never did lol. so yeah today was a pretty boring day adn i did nothing else......she caught me lol, but i won the battle and get to keep on truckin...tpying...same thing. so today was a non-chilante day, nothing new or too exciting, i almost ahd a heartattack though because mari didnt come in school this morning. well i knew her first class was upstairs in F so after 1sti went ther and ran into her and the first thing she says is 'IM SORRY!!' it was cute, but i knew she prob woulda went out for coffee like she did. no shocker with nina dna tomrob in the car lol. so then i went to gym, attempted to lift wieghts for about 10 minutes after my coach told us things that we alreayd knew, and then went on to hist, nothing new there either lol, talked to nina DURING the damn test, which was easy as all hell, then i went ot band...blah blah blah, waited for mari before i went to ASL, she was late, so was I, w/e lol. then here i am. thats how damn exicting my life as and i know u all are enjoying it as much as i am ::rolls eyes:: o yes o baby o baby the excitement is filling the air lol. shit i think the bells gonna ring soona dn i gotta type fast, there aint nothign more for me to tp[ye but it makes me look busy lol. well im signing off now, ill ttyl. peace

<3 mari 1-29

today was a boring day, i went to work, i watched the game, congrads patriots, and then im goin to sleep hence now....yeah today was bronig tomorrow should be better. nitey nite all

I <3 Mari 1-29-04

so yeah todays saturday and its been a kinda long day....heres the recap of yesterday and today...

so friday we had school, which was a stupid idea by the superintendant because it was the unofficial senior cut day. no one was there adn no one cared about what we did in class lol. and since the eng regents were mon adn tues...ALL the eng teachers were grading them, so instead of going to eng, we were supposed to go to the aud. well...mari had eng 8th period and instead of goin to the aud, she came to luinch with me, tomrob and some other people lol. so haveing her there was fun...hehe. then i had to go to the damn aud thing the next period so that sucked lol, i did the whole planning for next year thing, which is pretty damn easy lol.

i didnt go to living theater, instead i went out with my mom adn sis and got my paychecks cashed, and then had to stop at sports authority to pick up a new bowling ball. why"? because im a geek that way lol. then i went home, chgilled for a while, adn prepared for my cdouble date with mari, jeff adn kailtyn...

Oh...my...god. it was so dman fun. we went to amf and we bowled three games, it was so freakin fun u have no idea, we bullshit, laughed, ....yeah, and just overall had an awesome time. i have to say it was the best date that i have ever gone on in my life. then...we went over kaitlyns house till about 1140 and 'chilled'...hey mari... 'GOD DAMN THIS CELL PHONE!' ::throws on ground:: lol. afterwhen i got home, i bullshit on the comp for about and hour then went to bed, that was one of the best days ever lol.

the next morning i wanted to sleep late, i get up at 8...fall back asleep...wake up at 1125...fall back asleep...110pm...wake up by dog thrown onto my back. as i get up, i look at my phone to see 3 messages, one is my friend sammi txting me to tell me to stop being a dick, which im not being...long story...then the other 2 are from mari adn one says 'what are u doing from 12-4? now remember, its 110 lol. so i get up, shower, eat, call mari and get a ride to kailtyns house for all of us to chill. well apparently i didnt remember that kailtyns family was gonna be there for one of her baby cousins 1st bdays. well, when i walk in im greeted by the entire family like i was their daughters boyfriend...which in a sense is true because mari is almost adopted into kailtyns family so in a sense, i now am too. i meet the family, talk with them, help them with their computer problems, and it leads to me getting a round of golf by kailtyns uncle, and grandfather out in wading river with mari jeff adn kailtyn....ILL TAKE IT, if all i have to do is care for mari and listen to her grandfather talk about being the head of public affairs....good deal lol. but finally they leave at about 305 and we all then chill upstairs for a while, we took pictures, the one i took looks like shit lol. but yeah otherwise it was fun. then i came home and did jack fuckin shit lol. nothing has happened since 4 and im now at the point of boredom. lol. but its ok. mari is at work till sometime from 11-1230 depending on how busy it is there, so maybe if shes not too tired ill talk to her tonite.
o yeah and i was alking to rosati about em adn mari adn its official, i now see how he looks at realtionships and i like it alot better than my honry old self of just going from girl to girl fuckin of w/e happened, i am trying to block it out. but now that i see what i ALREADY have with mari, i can only imagine what me adn ehr will have in the future...god mari, id say i lveo you, but thats kinda rushin it a LITTLE bit but i can say i really care about you (because i learned form that friends episode never to say 'i love spending time with you' lol) because i really do care about mari, shes the first girl to ever make me feel the way i do. i really hope me adn her last...and i hope she feels the same way.

::dances...clicks heels...smiles:: as youc an tell i am a happy guy, there is a good story to it too, so lucy, allow me to splain...

as my last jounral entry sed, "and theres also another girl i am interested in which i hope she likes me too cause then she seems like someone whod be a good long term gf as well...." well that other girls name is mari, she is freaking amazing. how it all started was about a week ago i was hanging out with her, bubba, nina, alan, and drew. we all went to sports plus and for some reaosn i started to look at her in a different way, it was really weird. but i liked it lol. so by the end of the night we all went to ninas house, which has its own spereate story which ill talk about later, and i waned to talk to mari and see if shed ever consider giving me a shot...so i got her cell # and i started txting her. well it went pretty well adn i got a 'id have to think about that'. which for me, is a victory lol.

so then the next week goes on and me and her talk online a few times, get to know one another a little better and i am really starting to like her. (now remember, i have nina, kaitlyn, alan and erin all on my side (thanks guys) ). so then on tuesday night me mari alan and nina were hanging out at ninas house, we chilled for a lil while, i wanted to make a move on mari but i didnt quite yet, then erin came and later on we went to the mall. we all bullshitted adn stuff, it was alot of fun. then eventually we headed over to the food court, sat down adn got comfy for a lil whie
alan, who wants to help me adn mari out tells nina and erin that he needs to go look in EMS and get some water, so now its just me adn mari at the table....hehe....well im talking to her and stuff adn im being really shy, ina cute way, and i basically ask her if she wanted to kiss. she sed she doent really approve of pda (public displays of affection) but we kissed anyway...OMFG! this was probably one of the best kisses i have ever experienced, it was short but damn i was hooked in like u have no clue lol. so me and her are bsing for a lil while more and we get to ninas house again and then i have to go home...end phase one. lol

the next day, wednesday, thank heaven to god there was no school, cause i f there was i wouldve had to go to jazz ensemble rehersal and that would mean i wouldntve been able to go to ninas little sisterss birthday party (who btw, she loves me, and shes like 7 lol). well mari alan and nina were there too and we were being real cute and shit and btw this is at the mall. i finally meet them and i see mari adn i smile a lil more lol. but um...so then we have our pizza there and then we head down to buildabear for part 2 of alxs (ninas lil siss) partay. now i dunno how people who are reading this have ever been to buildabear but in each bear they have these little tiny satin hearts that are slightly stuffed and say i love you on them. well i stole one, wrote 'from, matt' on the back, and tried to figure out a way to get it into maris pocket, or purse. well alan helped me out adn got it into her purse. now mari being as oblivious as she was, didnt find it until nina told her it was in there, ninas all 'theres something in ur purse' adn mari looks like 5x adn doesnt find it, until nina reaches in there and gets it for her. i dont know how she reacted until i asked her if she found it and she was all smiles....

well afterwards we all cram into ninas moms car and i sneak over to ninas house with the whole gang, adn which i told my mom theres coffee adn cake lol shhh. ;-) well, i got my cake alright adn it was sweet as all living hell. ya see, i pulled mari aside adn sed this...

'well there was 2 things i wanted to ask u tontie, but im only gonna as one. the first question that i wanted to ask was to ask you out, but according to them u wanna take it slow ::mari nods adn giggles:: the second thing is kidna embarressing to really say out oud but its direct adn i find it works ::both of us laugh::, do you want to kiss?"

well me and her did for a second, then she stepped into the dark den adn kissed a little more and then went got comfortable on the couch, nina and alan are on one, and me adn mari are on another, nothing was on tv, nina adn alan were tied together, and me and mari just decided fun time...

then her mom came, we chilled and watched idol for a lil bit, and then i asked if she wanted to go in the other room, beofre i could finish the sentence she sed yes please lol. well we did and i wont say in detial waht happened, but i will say this.... mari...u r the best kisser ever, your lips are so damn soft and that lip gloss really helps lol ;-).....

but yeah that was fun until i had to go home. i went online afterwards, bullshit with her for a while, and then jsut beofre i signed off i sed, 'and be ready 2moro cause theres something i gotta ask you ::sign off::' cause in my mind, i was gonna ask out mari what is today, then 2moro.

so i wake up, study a lil, have breakfast, get a ride to school (notice skipping the bad stuff) and then try to search for the guys, i find nina and erin, and then later we find mari. were all talking and i wanna stop at my locker to drop off my jacket, well, i pull her with me adn ask her this,

"well, we both know what im about to ask so must i even ask it? lol"
" no lol"
"will you?"
"yes....i think so....um eyah i do lol"
"OOOS O U THINK SO???? (sarcastically::"
"nononono i dint eman it like that but i do want to"
"YAY! click heels"
"lol"

and fyi, we didnt actually say lol we laughed. hehe. but yeah so it was a great few days for me adn otherwise nothing else has happened of that excitement level. :-D!!! im like in lala land because mari seems to be the kind of girl that is on the same level as me adn i really like her....ALOT...i hope this relationship goes well cause i dont wanna fuck this up too lol. im gonna be the best i can be, im chanign myself entirely, if u saw me over the week, ive been dressing better, acting a lilttle better, and jsut overall looking at things differently. partly because of mari, but also because of myself, because im ready for change for the better, no more changes for the worse...

so that has been my week really, kinda fun,. kinda flirty, kinda everything. i wish i could do it all over again. i know i cant but im happy where i am, and a big part of it is you mari, thanks alot, i <3 u. peace yall

wow its been a while since ive updated in here, yeah i know ive been busy people but u know what, u can all kiss my ass. why? cause tis soft and squishy like a marshmallow. sry random i know but heres the overall update on my life
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theres been nothign enw reall in my life. i mean, i rushed into a relaioship which i called off for now today, and now i gotta see if this girl is what im looking for in a long term relationship. and theres also another girl i am interested in which i hope she likes me too cause then she seems like someone whod be a good long term gf as well. iunna. im so confused. but yeah thats the sad highlight of my life....uve read the past entries, they sucked...so what did u expect from this one? honestly? lol exactly what i was thinking.

ok so i am bored outta my mind here in forensics class agaqin...i prob should be cutting and chillinwith colette, but that didnt really factor out lol....i swear to god im gonna switch into a diff forenscios class and have 6th period lunch JUST so that i can be with her.....its sad but true lol. any way...my life lately has been kind busy...i got a job at toysrus about 1 weeks ago...and man is it great...im mainly a cjaier, but from time to time, i gotta do other things. its great pay...7.12/hour and the people are great...also j works there too, and now sean, jackie and my other friend michelle may be working there as well....god i feel loved lol. um...but yeah because of that i havent realy done a whole lot this weekend except eat and work lol. so many assignments...so little time lol....there are sometimes where i wish colette could work there too, but then when i get there, i realize how busy i really am during works hours lol.

but yeah thats been a slittel sum of whats been going on with me...for those of you who give a damn enough to read my livejoural....EVEN THE ONES I EXTREMELY HATE WITH A PASSION AND WISH COULD STOP...i know i havent updated alot in the past few months, but ill try my best to do what i can...thanks...i g2g to math now...PEACE!

I Love Colette 10-24-03

I can't beieve its been this long sicne I have updated here. If you looking at my time of post, it's right...technically it's second period here, but I got odne early so now I'm gonna bullshit while I'm here....Here's a recpa of the past month.....

........................................shit.

Absolutely nothing of importance has happened since me and colette havae started going back out. Speaking of which......me and colette um....trying t put this it terms that wont get me kickoff livejournal...."hopped on the good foot and did the bad thing"...sounds good. lol. it was amazing though :-D lol. but moving onto other things...helloween was fun, i got more heads to turn...did my headless guy outfit...everyone loved it. Everyone always gets freaked out by it. But yeah... so now it's been a lil over 3 weeks wit her and me a happy guy :-D!!!! I can't believe that me adn her are back together though....sure ...she has the DP, and paul...and that other kid that i met on halloween...can remember his name....but the DP situation I understand, and Paul is used for rides...and the other kid is used for $$. It's great. So the only person who I have to "compete" with for colettes total affection is the DP. I really wish that she would dump the DP and Paul though...the other kid i dun care about...it's just...I'll admit it, i'm jealous...especially with Paul....because he's a lil too overprotective of her. Like when colette was over my house doing a "health project" he kept callin and txtin her to "check up" on her to make sure she wasnt doing anything with me (well that turned spiffy didn't it ;-) ) and he shocked the living hell outta me on friday too...BY SHOWING UP AT OUR SCHOOL!!!! I'll get into that a little more later. And the DP, I am not jealous...but..........I can't explain it...he seems like...."an obstacle" in the way of getting to colettes total affection. Because whenever those 2 hang out...she feels like a li school girl again...and it kmakes me sad...because I do the same thing for her, yet I know shes still attached because he was her 'first". so i understand its hard for her...but ::sigh:: o well. ::shrugs:: . ..............
NOW ONTO THE HIGHLIGHT OF MY MONTH!!!!!...friday.....


Well, we're in Living Theater, adn it's break time...(just a heads up...colette's bi)...and were all down in the corner smoking,...i watch i dun smoke...and we're bullshitting and all and our friend candace is there too..........well....colette decides to...uh.,..."Keep canace warm" because she was outside in that bistering cold wind with nothing but a boob shirt on. so colette REEALY warms her up with a few touchy feely incidents.......AAAAAaaand im just there watching....now at first...it was kida like a soft core porn.....but then she got kinda serious.....so I got really pissed off.......then i went away, talked to colette, and we were fine....2 minutes later, me and colette are walkin down the hallto leave and who but none other that PAUL shows up behind us...and remember, paul dun know about me...soi was really fuckin pissed....and tht was my friday...

I gotta go now cause i think were gonna try to learn again today...paece ut homie g dawgz...WALMART!!!


I love Colette.

WE GOT IT TOGETHER DID'NT WE
NOBODY BUT YOU AND ME
WE GOT IT TOGETHER BABY

MY FIRST, MY LAST, MY EVERYTHING
AND THE ANSWER TO ALL MY DREAMS
YOU'RE MY SUN, MY MOON, MY GUIDING STAR
MY KIND OF WONDERFUL, THAT'S WHAT YOU ARE

I KNOW THERE'S ONLY, ONLY ONE LIKE YOU
THERES NO WAY THEY COULD HAVE MADE TWO
YOU'RE YOU'RE ALL I'M LIVING FOR
YOUR LOVE I'LL KEEP FOR EVERMORE,
YOU'RE THE FIRST MY LAST MY EVERYTHING

IN YOU I'VE FOUND SO MANY THINGS
A LOVE SO NEW ONLY YOU COULD BRING
CAN'T YOU SEE IF YOU,
YOU'LL MAKE ME FEEL THIS WAY
YOU'RE LIKE A FIRST MORNING DEW ON A BRAND NEW DAY

I SEE SO MANY WAYS THAT I CAN LOVE YOU
TILL THE DAY I DIE........

YOU'RE MY REALITY YET I'M LOST IN A DREAM
YOU'RE THE FIRST MY LAST MY EVERYTHING

*** INSTRUMENTAL ***

I KNOW THERE'S ONLY, ONLY ONE LIKE YOU
THERES NO WAY THEY COULD HAVE MADE TWO
GIRL YOU'RE MY REALITY
BUT I'M LOST IN A DREAM
YOU'RE THE FIRST YOU'RE THE LAST MY EVERYTHING

I Love Colette... I love her with all my heart, I love her like there's no 2moro...but I never had a chance to express how much I did. But now, that I have the courage and balls to do it, I did, and it was worth while. Friday night...Smithtown Idol...we chilled and shit, she was with me pretty much the entire time...and about lafway through, I asked her out...again...and she said yes, and now, my love can be expressed, and as she knows, it has been, is now, and will always be there for her.

well, today has been a pretty good day, I am in forensics again...i got done pretty quickly. Im good that way.....NOT in THAT way but well...i dont know, ask colette lol. She knows..or at least will ;-) lol. But back to the topic, i am BORED OUT OF MY MIND!!! AHH!!!! ::grabs computer screen:: :throws it out window:
"MATT!" - Ms. Schacter exclaims...
::looks left, looks right, looks at teacher::
"Um......um....I have to go to the bathroom..."
"WHAT IN GODS NAME DID Y...oh, ok just write out a pass..."
SCORE!!! I'M FREE IM FREE IM FR...
"But after you fix the computer screen.........."
.............................................................................................damn.

i am in forensics and i am done with a project...im bored outta my mind, last period all we did was talk about me...it was my ASL calss adn i have been ipset because i feel bad for colette. The scene is, colettes DP hasnt called her on their 1yr 8month anniversary and when she tried to call him, he didnt pick up his phone. Now she has gotten no sleep whatsoever and she feels like shit. I can't believe that that prick didnt call...itrs an ann. YOU CALL UR 'GF'...iunna, maybe its just me, but thats what I do. post ur poinion on this...peace out

well, i know it has been a while since ive written here so illgive u the heads up on whats happened the past 2 weekends, because they are the only ones that matter lol. It was my birthday friday, so alot has happened. Last saturday I had my friends birthday party. I twas, colette, nicole, joanna, candace, derek, jason, sean, dan, bubba, mike. It was FUCKIN AWESOME! Ill lay out the highlights...Mike got a piece of something, I got ... ill explain in a minute... lol... we all danced a shir load and there was alot of lap dances. now wow that was fun. especially by nicole and johanna. Ill put it this way... these were the gifts i got from the women...Nicole- Flashed me, Johanna- Humped in the hot tub, Candace and Colette - LETS GO TWIN JETS, Colette- a card and $$ and a lil red box lol. :-D I was so happy, it was alot of fun, games, contreversy, hookin up..the norm lol. But it was a lot fo fun, and I got $135 dollars and a game and cards...

Today...was my family Birthday party...I made over $600!!!!!! Im like HOLY SHIT!!! lol. But nothing exciting happened. So now I have to put some of my money away for a car but i get to blow about 350 of it. Im gonna buy some games for xbox, xince i only got it like 2 weeks ago, and some new pads....FOR DDR LADIES!!!...lol...and then um...iunna what else, but I have had an awesome week. It was so much fun...I wish my friends party...the 2nd half...could happen again...it was a blast. But w/e, ill make sure it happens again...ain't that right colette?

I JUST GOT XBOX!!! IM SO HAPPY!!! What happened was...my dad was part of a raffle where the limited edition Xbox was one of the prizes, but my dad didn't win...his friend did. But, his friend wasn't there. So, my dad took it on his behalf to deliver it to his friend. Well, today, he gave it to him, and his friend said, 'What am I going to do with it? My kids are 24 and 25. You take it.' So now it's ours! And I am really happy. So now I have set it up in my basement as a whole entertainment center. On the left side, I found and extra TV, and set my PS2 and DDr equipment up over there. Then on My normal TV, I set up the xbox. I don't have any games yet (HINT HINT since my bday is on the 17th and my party is comin up for those who know about it. Sorry to those I couldn't invite, I had to limit my lit adn I apologze for that) so I can't play It yet. But now I have 2 DVD thingys for it. All i need now for my entertainment set to be complette is Gamecube lol. jk. I dont NEED it, but it would be nice. lol. Um, I do need more controllers though. I only comes with one. OH! And I forgot to tell you, IT'S LIME GREEN! It's not black,it's a limited edition Mountain Dew Xbox. It's kool lookin'. My sis named it Hulk. Lol. But it's really kool. So yeah now let me tell you about my week.....it sucked. lol. I can't wait for my party. it's gonna kick ass. Peace out.

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